Friday, June 22, 2007
Addiction
I have decided to start to use caps for blogging cos it looks much neater.
Anyway, I have some random thoughts today about addiction. Addiction can be a boon or a bane. It depends on what you are addicted to and how addicted are you. When you are addicted to something or someone, you would keep on thinking of it everyday. You want to do that thing everyday. You dont really care what other people think.
Personally i have been addicted to quite alot of stuff. Remember in Sec 2 i was addicted to playin basketball. I would go to the neighbourhood bball court to shoot some hoops. I would enjoy myself even though i was shooting myself. Sometimes i would play 3v3 or 4v4 with the ppl thr. I would go thr everyday after school, even though i was tired. To think back, i was sort of addicted, bt the addiction was nt tt much as i only played like 2 hrs a day. In Sec 3, i remb i was told by mr neo i was too skinny to play bball, so i went to the gym to build up my body. I was quite addicted to body building at that time, so much so that i persuaded my dad to buy me weights at home. I got a barbell that yr for my bday. I went to the gym at least 2 times a week, and even ate weight gaining powder.
Hai. Now i am addicted to computer games, specifically dota, or rather only dota. Argh. Been playin it for like almost everyday these past few months. It started last year, during march. I remb the whole bunch of anderson guys were preparing to pon something, cant remb wat. We went to amk raiders to play cs. then nub suggested dota. So we tried it. I remb my 1st hero was razor. I started to play more of it during june holiday last yr. was quite upset over some stuff, so thought of using dota to numb myself. bt wasnt so addicted back then. It was only this year, when i did not get into the bball team, was uber dissapointed, so played dota, hoping i wld forget abt it. The more i play, the more addicted i got.. Addicted until i could play for the whole day. I really mean whole day, as in frm wake to sleep, on a few occasions cant even bothering to bathe. hai. cant really stop this addiction sia. I promised myself to restrict my playin, bt juz couldnt do it. on a few occasions i promised myself not to play dota for that day, but i failed. today was a good example. cts start in only 2 days, and i still played for 4+hrs today. hai. Bt i swear, and resolve to curb my addiction after this cts. I really really mean it this time. i dont think any of my frens wld understand, cos definately they have not been as addicted as me. i thought of a plan. hm. will carry out aft cts. its sort of like cold turkey, like hw drug rehabs attempt to kick their addiction for drugs. bt i guess it will take some time. For now, i have to salvage the rest of the 1day n a half, and try to pass my cts.
iduntellu at 11:53 PM